Thought I’d made friends with time.
I am heavily displeased with the amount of negativity that I have allowed to creep in these days. I can’t keep blaming my co-workers; I should be able to filter the negativity that they exude. It has been unfair of me to put so much of the blame on Red.
And I am going to try very hard to consider that all when my work week begins again on Monday. For the moment, I don’t have to think too much about it.
At any rate, I don’t even quite know why I am writing right now. Perhaps it is only in hopes of waking myself up that I do this. It looks astoundingly beautiful outside today, and I feel as though I should be out there. Yet, I know myself, and I feel like I could easily allow myself to be quite sedentary today.
I am tired.
If it were warm enough to bring the guitar outside, perhaps then I would find my way out-of-doors. It’s not quite there yet.
One of my neighbors is raking his lawn. Most of us never got around to doing that, as it started to snow before we could get all of our leaves from the ground. He has a little black dog keeping him company at the moment, a cute, unidentifiable breed, sniffing at the ground, following his shadow, his long-haired tail just blowing in the wind.
I envy that little dog.
March is nearly over, and I find myself pleased at that prospect. Ever since I quit student teaching, I have discovered that I often wish the time away, almost. I get excited when I know that I can turn the calendar page. It makes little or no sense at this point. I have no time-oriented goals to reach.
(I have set it in my head, though, that I will get out of Barnes and Noble before this calendar year has ended. It’s a long period of time, but I find that it’s realistic. I hope to start sending out resumes before June.)
Well, I am just a ball of ramble today.
I have to apologize to anyone who happened upon this ridiculous blog entry.
I think that it’s time I thought about doing my yoga (easing in slowly again–just 10 Sun Salutations and 1 or 2 sequences) and maybe getting out of the house. Perhaps I can go out to Whole Foods or something.
::yawn::
