From behind a few boxes of Kleenex
January comes to a close, and I emerge from a week of complete and total snot-filled fun. (Note sarcasm.)
I should preface the following spree of whining by stating that I have not been sick for a rather long time. I used to have a lot more sinus problems than as of late (knock wood), so when I was finally hit by a winter cold, it truly floored me. I have been a cranky little zombie child for more than a week. The only solace for those around me has been the almost-complete loss of my voice. Of course, this has been replaced by repeated bouts of hacking cough, so…perhaps not as much solace as implied.
Ah well. I can almost again breathe freely, which indubitably lifts my spirits.
I think that even before the cold set in that I was fast-turning into a rather large crankypants.
Most of my crankiness stemmed from a lack of romance in my life, and my tendency to focus too heavily on that lack.
I think that also had to with a few frustrated attempts to change my situation, only to be thwarted by circumstance and misinterpretation.
My former co-worker apparently has a girlfriend that he failed to mention to me. He mentioned her to other co-workers, but not to me, and not to a couple of other women in the store.
Ah well. It kind of makes me laugh to think about, in retrospect.
And really there’s no one else.
I’ve decide to just clean the slate and stop thinking about it so much. The overthought never changes anything, and in the end, just makes me kind of bleak and cranky. I don’t need that.
I also think that I need to rework my iPod collection. I need more cheerful music on my iPod. I know that sounds ridiculous, but honestly, when I listen to certain types of music, my mood changes…either for better or worse. I have a lot of darker “indie” type of stuff on my iPod right now. Screamo, goth, metal and darker forms of alternative rock seem to have taken over.
I think it’s time to put more of my cheerful, bluegrass, Irish, and Jack Johnson-esque tunes on my iPod and in my car’s CD collection.
Winter is bleak enough.
Blah. I’m still stuffy, though, and I know that this came out with fair incoherence. I just wanted to write, because it’s been so long since I have.
And now, now, I need to go prepare for work. (Not actually “get ready”…this is more a mental thing…due to the lingering of my cold symptoms.)
::Sniff::
